I have had a headache for three days now. It is annoying to say the least.
I’m not too worried about it – I tend to get a lot of them and was told as a child they are in the family. The fact that Dad had an inoperable brain tumour niggles at me, but not too any great extent.
I think at the moment I am just extremely unhealthy. Compared to where I was. I have always had to work hard to have a proper diet. And to exercise to keep healthy. I was there, I had it all pretty much under control. But the last 3 or 4 weeks I have allowed it all to unravel. I have stopped seeing my PT, have not been to the gym for 3+ weeks, have started eating copious amounts of sugar again and other crappy food and given away all my healthy food meals and habits such as eating breakfast and drinking 2 litres of water each day. I also tend to get dragged down into other unhealthy compensatory behaviours which I am not prepared to go into here and now.
I am more than peeved with myself.
And of course since the physical wellbeing is sinking, so is the mental wellbeing. Gah! Cant win
I blame work. I do not handle work well. It simply exhausts me. I know, I know, we all have to work and we all feel the same way. It is clearly something I need to work on – managing tiredness and making time for exercise and proper food preparation. I have started back at university now, as mentioned in my previous post, so work will be reducing work again soon. I guess now I have to re-balance a healthy lifestyle and re-set my goals and priorities.
It’s so funny. I know how good I feel when everything is going how it should be – the right food makes me feel good. Yet I cannot stop shoving anything and everything down my throat, despite not even feeling hungry! Crazy.
Blah blah blah I just need to suck it up and do it, eh!
I still have the headache