So this time of year is significant for Victoria, and Australia in general I guess, as the new school year is starting.
I have been watching teachers setting up their classroom, kids getting ready to head back to the classroom and parents rejoicing about their return.
So of course, the crappy anxiousy feels have started.
This was/is my world. It was. It is past, but feeling how I do now, I think there is still some residual attachment to the profession. I guess I’m in transition of moving away from the role of full-time classroom teacher to whatever my next role is – clearly I have not accepted any newly defined role as I’m still harbouring attachment to the old. Still finding that path. Maybe I will never fully make the disconnection. Maybe at the start of each school year I will get these feelings. A full time teacher at heart perhaps?
I hate the awful feels. Hate hate hate. It doesn’t help when everyone else is busy contributing to society and working full tie and not around for coffees and brunches haha
I am tutoring later. I can feel a little better about helping 3 kids tonight. That will get me through the afternoon.