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Today

Today has had a rough start. It’s the first day of school, which always gets me, and which I had forgotten always gets me! I guess I still identify as a teacher (well, I am, aren’t I?) and the first day back proves I am still in limbo – I’m not in a classroom setting up my year, being a productive member of society, but sitting home feeling useless and nothing and with no direction or money or point.

Blah.

I have done the old loud music trick – Jebediah at the moment. Good memories from these songs, of better times. And keeping busy – shopping, restocking  my pills, making bone broth, setting myself up with proper food, washing, tidying.

ALL THE RIGHT THINGS, EH EXPERTS!?!?!?!

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I messaged my friend who goes through similar things and he’s such a sweetheart, he knows. Things I can say to him only, but not others. This shit is really only understood by people who have experienced it. These people get it. He’s the only one who sees my true head and heart, and only at a distance unfortunately. He drinks to keep sane. I can’t do that. I would really like to take the old cigarettes back up though.

I think everything is further compounded by me being sick. I’ve had a virus hanging on for a few days now and I’m over it! Grrrrr

But I’m trying Ringo, I’m really trying.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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A quick check in!!

Yes, yes, yes. I know. I suck.

What’s the point of having a blog if I don’t blog.

Blah.

I’m still here. Still around. Still planning blog posts in my head. I just need the time to get them out 🙂

I have my last exam for the trimester tomorrow. It is bloody painful! Intro to Social Psych, I thought I would love you, but your wordy, jargony, theory and paradigm-heavy content is doing my head in! And a 120 question multiple exam cannot come and go quick enough! My other two were just 60 and 80 questions respectively. But noooooo, social psych needs to be all epic and shit.

Blah.

After 3pm tomorrow I can relax and be study guilt-free for a while.

I have agreed to work all of next term (I only have one subject to complete, and I may even defer it until trimester 3). I was asked during a time of financial guilt (I hadn’t worked in a few weeks, and was feeling the stress of no income) and agreed to do the job. It helps that I will be in two different grades – 6 and then 4. Keeps me as interested as I can be with teaching at the moment.

Anyhoo, that is life. In a nutshell.

It will get better. I promise 🙂

The Beginning

So Ive made it. To the land of the Blog. Finally. Eventually. Here I am.

My first blog. My first blog post.

I like writing. I hope this will be an outlet primarily for me to vent. To express myself. To help me find myself. Ive started a journey, as cliched as that is. This may help me sort myself out. I don’t know. I guess we will find out. I may never return here again after this.

It is not designed to entertain anyone, but perhaps you will be entertained anyway.

I need to remind myself to breathe. To pause. To stop and think and appreciate. The name of this blog serves as a reminder for me.